2 months

holy moly that month flew by. James is officially out of newbornhood and I’m a bottle of contradictory emotions. (Per usual😂). On the one hand I feel so accomplished that we made it... we SURVIVED! And yet... whenever I see another newborn my heart breaks a tiny bit. Did I soak it all up? Did I relish in this fleeting time? Or did I wish it away. Will’s newborn stage felt so much longer and I worry that because we were so concerned with James growing I missed out on loving him in his tiny-ness. Mike assures me we relished... I’m still not so sure. Either way, I’m determined to slow down even if time does not.

You: still love to snuggle (so different than your brother). are a mini-Will..but really you look just like him. Are starting to lose that darling dark hair (will we get another blonde!?🤞🏻). weigh over 13 lbs WOOT WOOT. have seen a million lactation specialists and we’ve spent hundreds of dollars trying to help you nurse (this mama is persistent). were severely tongue and lip tied and had a little procedure done by an pediatric dentist to fix it (we hope it will help-although you’re still doing half bottle half nursing). are soooo close to smiling. are still the most calm little thing and we love you so.

I: am feeling better emotionally this month. have determined to try harder to say “no” to some things so I can focus on what matters most to me-you! still get overwhelmed so easily. am so thankful William is adjusting and likes me again 😂👍🏻. live for the sweet sibling moments. need to start packing soon. still feel so sad about moving. have LOVED having Mike home full time (but pray every day he can find a job/career he loves). am learning the art of letting go. am looking forward to Halloween. am looking forward to my birthday. am looking forward.