The Derrick Adventure: 3 months

You: constantly suck on your fist (much to your mother's dismay). have been dealing with reflux but are hopefully on the mend. have the most adorable giggle. learned how to squeal like a little pig (which we thought was hilarious until you took the positive feedback and now do it all the time #parentfail). love to watch daddy cook. wake up exactly 45 minutes into your nap and yell until we come in then go back to sleep. love your daily walks but usually fall asleep within the first 5 minutes. love to talk to your grandma's. enjoyed your first experience outside at bear lake. will finally take a bottle (as long as it's from dad).

I: am fairly certain you are the cutest baby on the planet. still haven't been to the gym but am aching to go whatsupbodyhaventseenyouinawhile. am in constant wonder by a mother's love. am thoroughly enjoying the cute stage you are in. can now grocery shop and shower before noon. am thrilled to be teaching dance again. kiss your chubby soft cheeks 9,000 times a day. have such dreams and aspirations for you. look forward to the weekend with Mike like kids look forward to Disneyland.

Mr. William is officially 3 months old today! We love him more than ever but whew... this last month has been a doozy. Cutiepants Will has been diagnosed with reflux (bless his little heart). Around the time he turned 2 months old, he started to get SUPER angry any time he ate. He would be a happy little camper until I tried to feed him, then he would eat for 5 minutes and break off screaming, arching his back, pushing away ANYTHING to make me stop nursing. It was really distressing and I had no idea what was wrong. We tried everything we could think of with no success. The poor kid had a straight up panic attack every time he ate. I'm not going to lie, it was super stressful as a mom to see him so upset while I was trying to feed him to make him feel better. I was devastated the day Mike came home and he tried our new fancy bottle for the first time. Will downed 5 oz of pumped milk like he was starving to death. UGH! It felt like he hated nursing and I was so sad to think we would have to bottle feed him from now on (disclosure: I have nothing against bottle feeding or moms who choose/ have to feed their babies this way. I just was sad that something I tried so hard to make work was failing. I felt like a failure). But...unfortunately the magical bottle failed as well and he was back to being upset about eating. FINALLY we went to the pediatrician to see if there was something wrong (I don't know why I always wait so long... I think it's because I'm afraid of being a hypochondriac first time mom who is always freaking about little things that turn out to be nothing). But I was at my wit's end and desperate. The pediatrician suggested we try reflux medicine and limit my dairy intake to see if that might help. Luckily, I have seen huge improvement in his eating! And he is SO much happier with a full tummy--thank goodness! I'm hoping the medicine continues to help so his happy little personality can shine through again. acid reflux stinks. CURSE YOU ACID REFLUX!

What started out as a little side note turned into a monologue...as it so often does on this blog. whoops-but alas, that is the biggest update about the last month. and I want to be able to look back and remember it all. The good and the stinky. Month 3... we have high hopes for you:)

Bear Lake with the MacKay's was the perfect getaway. beautiful scenery-endless games-good food-great company. Oh how I love this family of mine!

somebody loves his gramme:)

this was William's first experience outside (while he was awake)

although this looks like baby torture...he was literally there for 2 seconds and was just frustrated we put him down because he was tired..not cold-don't worry!